American Airlines Internship awarded

These past few weeks have been pretty hard on me. I am still nowhere near the top of the mountain yet, but I can see a little bit of light at the end of the tunnel (through the mountain). A person's ego can be a pretty fragile thing sometimes, and I think I am very prone to this kind of situation. On Monday I got an email from Continental Express that said something along the lines of "At this time all of our internship positions have been filled." meaning that I didn't get the spot. I was pretty confident about it, and it came as a pretty big blow. I really cannot stand that thought of doing my best and failing. It goes against all that I stand for. I still cling to that old belief you heard a long time ago that you can do anything you put your mind to. So I was feeling pretty down. My ego, when damaged by aviation, takes a huge toll on my flying and my studies. So whenever something goes wrong that makes me feel like a shitty pilot, I become a shitty pilot until I feel better (which takes a long time because I am acting shitty and then feeling even more shitty).

Today American Airlines called me and asked me if I wanted the internship position I interviewed for. Heck yeah! I was so worried that it had been such a long time without hearing anything that I figured I didn't get AA as well! I am so ecstatic right now! I have to find a place in Dallas now, from May 17th to August 17th. Everything I've been doing really has paid off!

I still have my Review Board for KSU coming up which will be a horrible time, and my CFI crosscheck and checkride with the FAA. And after that is flight team week in Columbus. Once that stuff is over I will be able to relax, enjoy my internship, get hired by KSU as a flight instructor, only 6 credit hours in the fall and graduation.

If only I can survive until then!